Heya guys,
Tomorrow I'm going to my school to a meeting to decide how this school year is gonna look for me, and since I havn''t been to school in about a year I'm really nervous >_______< And on on the 22nd (I think) I'm going to talk to some people, and they're gonna let us know if they're gonna press charges on the guy who did this to me, you'll know this if you have read previous posts...
AND on top of that I'm going to the dentist on the 20th >____< I HATE THEM!!! I mean who do actually wanna make a living out of looking and having their hands in someones mouth?! Sure, somebody gotta do it but still.
And my dentist NEVER wear gloves, IT'S DISGUSTING!!!
Blah!
BUT on the other hand I'm going to my best friend at thursday, I met her in the hospital and she's like the nicest person you could ever meet ^^
I'll write about my stay at the hospital now, so !!!!BORING ALERT!!!!
Anyway, as you know I was going to the hospital a while ago.
Me, my dad and my mom went to Akademiska Sjukhuset and to the psych something, something x) I dunno what it's called.
But when we get there we sat in a meeting with a doctor. She seemed really retarded, I mean reaaaaaally really slooooooow xD
But then she decided I was gonna stay, and I thought so too, until I got my "room" THE DINING ROOM! I told my parents I refused to stay there, 'cause I really regretted this choice of even going there in the first place, then my..... umm ... we'll call them handlers (GO DOLLHOUSE) He (HÃ¥kan) said that I could just try it one night but I still refused. Then around 5pm maybe, the people in there told me that I was gonna get a room around 8pm, so I was relieved but I still didn't want to stay and I said to my mom and dad that if they left me here I wouldn't sleep nor eat the entire time I was there.
The people there decided that my dad was gonna sleep there too, but in the basement right under BUP (That's the department for psycho teens and children) My mom eventually left and my dad tried to make me more happy, but I was so mad I could've sworn that if looks could kill I woul have blown a hole through everybody's head that came in eye contact with me.
At 10.30 everybody had to go into their rooms, and I did too.
They had put me on OBS 2 (explanation below) which I wasn't aware of and old people sat and stared at me all night. I know cause I was awake and played on my ipod xD
OBS 1 is when the people who works there, let's call them workers, don't bother you very much, just occasionally ask how you are and if there's something bothering you.
OBS 2 is when they watch you 24hrs a day, except for when you go to the bathroom, you can close the door but not lock it.
And OBS 3 is the worst one of all, you can't go to the bathroom by yourself you have to have the door open, and they watch you ALL THE TIME. They even have to be with you when you shower >_<
The next day I wasn't as mad at my parents as the day before, but still I wasn't happy they'd forced me to be there. They downed me to OBS 1 (YAY) And I could finally TALK to other people without having a tail -_-
I didn't eat anything most of the three weeks I was there. So I'm not gonna write about how the food was which btw was disgusting :)
My dad stayed with me there a couple, couple of days, 4 days would've been easier to write but still (:
And I always had visitors, like everyday :O
Now my hand hurts and my mom is yelling me to fix my bed so I'll continue writing tomorrow(I think :P) If anyone even read this xD
OH! And by the way I can't fix that problem with the kitchen deco but do you guys still want it, they work fine and recolors well it's just something buggy about the original recolors of the cloned object, if that makes at all sense.
If you're like me it doesn't matter you don't have to use those recolors, I'll post screen tomorrow ;)
NOW MY MOM IS BECOMING REALLY MAD, like very very mad :O gotta go, see ya tomorrow ;)
7 comments:
Wooow Elin, you`re realy strong to put up with all of this. I can`t imagine myself in a sitation like this. I realy hope everything gets better for you. And good luck in school!
Hey Elin, no I actually really like to read about your life, I've been in a similar situation so I always feel kind of connected to you if that makes sense! The hospital time didn't exactly sound like a vacation, it was really sweet of your dad that he stayed with you though! I'm glad that you're home again and I really hope that weirdo who threatened you will get punished! And good luck at school, and at the dentist, I also have to go (on the 26th I think), on my last checkup she suddenly discovered a bunch of cavities, so they'll have to be filled. I have a really scary dentist with an Eastern European accent lol, thankfully she does wear gloves though! Well I just hope she has enough anesthetics to keep the pain away :) Ok back to studying now.. bleh -.-
Yay - another Dollhouse fan! ;)
It's good that you write down stuff like this - it helps us to understand what you're going through. Do you watch House, btw? He had a stay at a psychiatric hospital earlier this season, and it was really interesting to watch. Maybe not entirely realistic, but interesting nonetheless! I think the way people's minds work is very intriguing (having suffered depression myself most of my life).
Anyway, hope school/dentist/etc goes well. :)
Yep Marisa! I watch house like everyday xD And I agree it was really interesting when house was at the psychiatric hospital. I felt so sorry for the people there, like the paranoid guy and the claustrophobic guy :(
Hi Elin!!!
You are a strong girl so you can go through this just fine.
All my bests and heart and kisses and hugs go to you.xxxooooo
hey elin,
i just read ur whole blog
like u im from sweden and im a selfharmer and have been hospitilized too
i really wish i could help u, but then i cant help myself either
i just hope u get good care, it may take time to find the best shrinks and doctors who will fit u (atleast for me that was a problem since i have huge trust issues)
as for selfharm i can link u a site i find good, it doesnt judge or make u feel ashamed of it (nor encourage u), its simply good to see selfharmers write about it and to know ure not alone
also some tip on what u can do instead of selfharm
http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/injury.html
u do have something very strong going for u, to just be able to write about selfharm on a blog like u done is a step forward, way better then not telling anyone about it and suffering alone
and also... i love the clutter conversions u do!!! i think its awesome u found something ure really good at that u can distract urself with at times
take care!
I really agree what was said above.
Venting in your blog is very helpful.
Thank you millions for your latest conversions, love them all.
Much love to you and sending you lots, lots, of love and hugs.
More power to you, your doing great.
xoxoxoxo
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