Hiya guys!
Just wanted to let you know that I'm back for today :D
But tomorrow I have to go back to the hospital "/
But tomorrow I have to go back to the hospital "/
About a week ago I told my psychologist my biggest secret ever; that I had been sexually abused when I was 7 years old, by my dad's best childhood friend.
This was so hard for me to tell since I've been keeping it a secret half of my life..
Most people think that it should be such a release for me, but it isn't. It's harder now than it was before I went to the hospital and I'm seriously considering suicide.
Nobody says it's my fault and that they're on my side but for me it's like they'll never look at me without pity in their eyes. I can't go a day without anyone talking about it. It's so hard, because now I've caused so much more trouble for my family, I feel more sorry for them then for me, because for them it came as a chock, I've lived with it for 8 years, so I've gotten used to the thought of it.
Today I'm gonna spend the entire evening with my family.
Goodbye, I'll write more about my visit at the hospital next time I'm at home :) <3
Goodbye, I'll write more about my visit at the hospital next time I'm at home :) <3
14 comments:
I'm sorry for you, I know that to overcome this will be very painful, most are young and smart, I wish you all the best for you. I'll be praying for you ...
and God bless ..
hugs
I am very happy to see that you are here again.
I can not know how you feel but we want you know that we'll send you all our strength.
I'm sure you and your family will be able to speak. I do not like talking about myself with my family but now I recognize it's not good to shut up. When a person goes silent for a moment you start in a hole, a painful hole.
Agggggg my horrible English.
Most importantly, we send a very, very big hug. And of course we will be waiting.
Be strong. We are here for you.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
I went through something similar when I was younger (I'm now 19) and I just want you to know that I'm proud of you! Things really are going to get better from here. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. If you would ever like to talk my email is ashleydoll@q.com. Good luck!
Ashley
Hi, I'm glad you're already back, pardon my English but I am Spanish and translate with google, just wanted to tell you to overcome your problems and fears it is better to focus on some Hobi, such as the Sims, if you have your time busy with something, the mind does not give you so many twists and everything seems less serious, anyway I wish him well and send you a big hug
I realy have no words to say to you, but that I realy wish, you get better soon and that you could get along with your family. I guess they just have to get over this shock and from there it will get better. Just be good to yourself. Lili
I am truly sorry what happened to you, but talk about the bad things that happen to one sometimes used to overcome it. You must not think negative, suicide is not an option, you are young and have a life ahead and now it seems that although you will not be able to move forward and really as soon stay home with your loved ones and all the people who go to this page. Kisses and hugs. Ana
I'm happy to have some news.
But don't feel guilty because of your family.
You've not caused trouble, it's not you, it's that freak, the friend of your dad!
Be strong.
Hugs
I''m so glad your back. I went through the same as a kid, but it was my babysitter. I never told anyone and still struggle with it. Just stay positive and focus on a hobby, it helps, trust me. Hugs and Kisses from the States!
~Heather =)
In no way was the abuse your fault. Do not blame yourself for that or for the shock your family is feeling. Your family will not blame you. Your abuser is the one who should be punished, not you and your family (and believe me, if you do kill yourself, that is something they will never get over). Please don't keep anything in - talking about things can be hard, but in the long run, it will get easier. xxx
Elin,
Sorry for my bad english!!!
4 years ago, I lost my big brother Antonio, committed suicide for love of his wife and daughter, since his wife left him and took daughter. I and all my family very badly and we still passing it, so you have to be strong for you, your family and all those who love you. BE BRAVE, FIGHT and do not fall into despair.
Do not know, but we share a hobby, the sims, so from Spain, I send all my strength and a kiss.
Maribel
Welcome back sweetie!
A problem shared is a problem halved.....you never have to deal with this horrible sort of thing by yourself. There is always someone who will listen. Above all, never ever feel guilty about pain inflicted on you by someone else.
From here, you can finaly grow and hopefully, in time, put all this behind you.
I wish you all the very best!
Welcome Back Elin!
It Must Have Been Really Hard To Tell Your Psychologist That.
Id Do You Good To Spend Some Time With Your Family. Get Some Fresh Air Too, Always Clears My Mind.
And, Well, Welcome Back!
Elin,
I love all the things you do for the game and I think you are a wonderful, talented, determined, and a beautiful person.
I know you are struggling with life issues and I know that you will win. Don't ever let anything get you down and beat up. You just hang in there. You'll win because you're strong and determined and focused. I believe in you!!
I'm praying for you and sending you lots of love and strength. I also wish you the best Christmas wishes and a hopeful and bright future for the new year.
~~hugs~~
Lise
I am glad you told someone. If the abuser is still alive, he could have touched someone else as well. Your honesty can protect other kids from becoming victims. Think of yourself as a possible hero. And simply reporting the issue helps others become aware that the problem exists and society needs to fix that! I hope you are able to move past the event and your family is understanding.
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